Depression: what it looks like

Depression.

Over the years we have often spoken about it and the idea that comes to mind is always that of a sick person who harms himself or who isolates himself from the rest of the world and is apathetic. I don’t say that they’re wrong images because it can often happen that they coincide with a depressed person. What I would like you to understand today is that it isn’t always the case, that there may be people that we would never call depressed and yet internally they are.

It’s simple nowadays to see a person being sad and to assume that he’s depressed. What we don’t understand is that sometimes depression isn’t seen. Look at the various actors or singers who die suicides or harm themselves because of depression. We often get angry when we come to know it because they apparently have no reason to be. This should make us understand how we have a distorted idea of ​​depression. It is thought that the only ones who can be depressed are those who suffer for things visible to all; whether it’s an important disease or another important thing.

in reality, depression captures people regardless of their social status. So just as we find poor depressed people we can find also rich depressed people. Moreover, those who are depressed aren’t always easily recognizable, because, often, they don’t want to be a burden for those around them so they try to not reveal it and mix in society. Anyone around us could also be the most unsuspected. The barman always smiling, the nice girl with whom we talk every now and then, the young man always willing to help. Only if you’re very careful you can notice the signs. A smile a little too forced, being overly cheerful and smiling as if playing a part. Here’s what depressed people are, good actors who try not to point out their problems.

Over and over again you’ll surely have wondered what goes through the minds of depressed people and what leads them to suicide in the most extreme cases. It’s often thought that they’re looking for the easiest way, try not to cope with their difficulties, that they’re weak people who don’t care about the people next to them. I’m here to tell you that it’s not like that. Most depressed people come to suicidal thoughts because they don’t see other solutions and indeed believe they’re doing a favour to those around them by getting rid of someone they see as a problem. Below I will tell you what goes through the mind of a depressed person with suicidal thoughts.

“I’m here alone in my room again, my friends at this time will be talking to their friends. It would be nice, it would be nice to have someone to talk to, someone to talk to but I’m here alone as always. I have some friends, yes, but I don’t want to soften them with my problems. I’m already too much of a problem for me, I don’t want to be the same for someone else. I’m alone, no one can understand what I feel, the emptiness that I feel inside of me is widening more and more. Now I feel that almost nothing can make me really happy, even those few things that I like have a bitter aftertaste. I’m not good at anything. At school I don’t excel; in sport, I’m not particularly gifted and as a person I have nothing particular. I know that my parents would certainly prefer to have a better daughter, I know I don’t reach their expectations and I’ll never do it because I am useless. Yes, useless. I feel like those porcelain dolls that are put on display just to show their beauty but aren’t able to do anything. Here I am so lonely, I’m not even beautiful so there’s no reason even to show me off. My parents will never admit it but I’m sure I’m a disappointment for them, a living disappointment, they look at me and smile but they are smiles of circumstances made just to not make me feel bad about myself but I know what they hide, they hide missed expectations and dreams that will never be reached. I often wonder why to keep going, to continue to live a life of lies, people who say they love me but surely would prefer me different from what I am. Those who would like me more sociable, more cheerful or better at school, there are so many expectations that I’ll never be able to reach that I don’t even try and I give up before. I feel like I’m not made for this world, a world that asks me too much. Die would be the best idea. To go away and never return. I would free my parents of enormous weight, that of having an inconclusive and incapable daughter, my friends of a weight to carry me around. It would be better for everyone. The only thing that keeps me from doing it is the way, finding the right way to leave. “

These were just a part of the thoughts I felt when I was depressed and that I decided to resurface and share here with you to let you see part of a depressed person’s mind and see the world from their point of view. A point of view not necessarily shareable but with its own validity. You can’t judge a person unless you first enter his mind and you understand what he really feels.

I hope with today’s article to have opened your eyes on what is the world of depression. If any of you are fighting depression and need to talk, know that I’m always available to help you. Just write to me and as soon as I can I answer you, remember that you’re not alone in this battle, you’re surrounded by people ready to help you.

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      agirlandherasperger

      Thanks to you, I’m sure you’ll be able to overcome it. If you want to talk I’m here.

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  1. Jenna

    It is true that depression isn’t always seen. A great reminder that even the “happiest” people you know may be depressed.

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